I Once Was Lost, But Now I'm Found...

Oh wow. I havent blogged in a while! Sorry guys. There's been A LOT going on lately. Busy busy busy!!! And drama. . Things hurt... but you know what? I'm doing okay. (: I've been lied to, I've been cheated on, I've been cursed at, I've been stabbed in the back, I've been betrayed, I've been hit in the face.. but im doing okay. The break up hurts, but eventually the hurt goes away and you find someone else, someone better. If you stay with the person you should have broken up with, the hurt is every day when things dont change. In my case, things weren't gonna change. I wasn't gonna change and neither was he. I had to end it. I had to shred everything of his. The pictures, the notes, the drawings, the stuffed animals, the memories are gone. Shredded. A new beginning. The best way to start (: School - my main focus. I shall do great, graduate, and move far away. How far you may ask? Anywhere I want. Maybe as far as across the country! California with my best friend?? Yes please! It would be away from everything. Everything good and everything bad. The best new beginning! I could work and live. Live the life I've always wanted. And meet new people and just be happy (: that sounds good to me. The sooner the better. I need to be away from all these people, all the drama, all the hate. . I need it now! ugh. The rest of my junior year...summer...senior year...the month of june...and 18 months of Stewarts. Hurry up three years!!!! I need you more than anything right now! I need fresh air! I need to breathe! I guess nothing can happen until i get off this computer. New life here I come! Watch out world :)

Peace & Love,

Alicia.

Hello There Reader (:

I wanna start with, BEST NIGHT EVER!! There is so much that went on i dont know where to start! Spent the whole weekend with my bff Kayla. (: She's amazing and so fun to be around! We always have fun together no matter what, and lots of laughter! Friday night was the best. Cant tell ya what we did ;) but it was definitely fun! So many memories - driving around listening to Avian Sunrise, going into sufu with friends, walks, pizza ranch, cute boy's houses, spook road, taking pix, and so much more! I dont even know how to explain the amount of fun we had (: I guess there's not much more for me to say, just wanted to let you know that my weekend was made!

Peace. Alicia.

Another Disappointment

hey...

so my guy and i have kind been on a roller coaster with our relationship. as of right now - we're fighting. no surprise there! i think im pretty much done with him. at least for the time being..
so the last few days i kind of realized i sorta like someone else (: cant tell ya his name but lets call him timmy*. timmy* is really sweat :) he cares about my feelings and he's SUPER funny! he wrapped his arms around me today at lunch when i was cold and it was magical! for me anyways...so all day i was happy. but then, after school, as i was chatting with my friends, who happens to walk by? of course timmy* now, you would think this would be a good thing, seeing your crush in the hallway. wrong. He was holding another girl's fricken hand!!!! urrg. his GIRLFRIEND. =/ so you can see why i might be a little disappointed. oh well, is all i can say.....hope your day went better than mine.

* = changed name.

Peace. Alicia.

My Life As . . Alicia.

Hello reader..

I've never done a blog before so I dont know exactly what to write. Aren't blogs supposed to be about anything? Kind of like your journal, only online? Who knows, but that's how I'm gonna treat this.
So, first off, the name's Alicia. I'm a junior in high school but I guess that's not really that important.
High school is lame anyways. So much unneeded drama. We have to deal with stuck up cliques, strict teacher, bad lunches, and best of all, homework. Now, I'm not the smartest person in our school so I'd say, yeah, homework sucks. I've been harassed, picked on, bullied, you name it, since the first day of kindergarten.  I remember coming home crying on the first day because I was the shortest person in my class and everyone was picking on me. It's not that big of a deal now, but back then, I thought it was the end of the world! Ever since then, school has been dreadful. Middle school. ugh, dont even get me started. That was a daily struggle for me, to wake up and just know the day was gonna be awful. Glad that's over with. Starting high school though, was so much better! A lot of the drama went away, although there is still quite a lot, and I got to kind of find where I fit in. Which is.. no where. Ha. You think that's bad? Think again. I love being by myself! But I do have a few friends, a couple close ones.. but a typical day at school I would prefer to go it alone. I get more done that way. And stay out of trouble!
Wow. Now that I've rambled forever about school, I can get back to telling you more about me.
I have some self-esteem problems. It does annoy people when I'm down about myself all the time so I'll try to refrain from doing so on here. I dont really like sharing personal things with anyone. I hate having to come out of my shell and share something that only I know. It does have its consequences though. Getting all bottled up inside and overflowing my tolerance for things. Then, well, lets just say, stuff happens. =/
Well lets wrap this up shall we? I'll keep ya posted.

Peace, Alicia.